“I Believe in Miracles” by Mary Ann Young
(Personal note written October 2024)
This is an emotionally raw, honest and very personal song that I wrote in honor of my sister, who passed away in late July of 2024. It comes from the perspective of how intense disappointments can shake one's faith and trust in a very loving God. We are tested and shaken when the end result of our prayers and fasting didn't bring about the move of God that we truly believed we would see. In our limited, human perspective, there's so much in this life that we simply don't and will not understand until we get to Heaven. So by faith, we continue on with our lives, one day at a time...
Yes, I believe that our God is still the God of miracles (that's what this song is about)! However, why does it appear at times that God answers some people's prayers and not others? Does God love that other person more than you or me? Also, why does it seem that God answers some of our own prayers (particularly healing prayers for others), but not all? I am tempted to ask (forgive me for such honesty after my most recent trial), why even bother to pray at all??
In the end, our God has the final say. We must come to that place where we declare God's will be done as we lay ALL of our cares at His feet. We must still choose to believe AND CONTINUE TO PRAY even when circumstances appear to scream that God does not care. No matter what, we must believe and trust that He loves us. Not only that, HE LOVES OUR LOVED ONE(S) FAR MORE than we are able to comprehend. We must pray, and then we must release everything into God's hands. This life is a walk of FAITH... Again, our God has the final say in ALL of our circumstances.
The concept of this song came to me within a few days after the loss of my sister, who had fought a courageous battle with cancer. A fierce battle that lasted only four months. Four very long months. I am so proud of her. She never gave up in her desire to live through all of her difficulties. Ultimately, God had a GREATER PLAN for her.
It has been a few months since I have been able to sit down and write a song. I hope that these words encourage you as much as it was therapeutic for me to write. I must share that living this song is an ONGOING PROCESS for me. I still struggle at times when it comes to accepting the loss of my little sis. At the moment of sharing this with you, it has been 2 1/2 months. Working through the grieving continues to take time, but I am pressing on toward this hope... I know for a fact, that I'm going to see my sister again. This has been and continues to be my greatest comfort.
Thank you, Jesus Christ, for making this possible!
Mary Ann
